I've hit 40 readers and I'm extremely excited. I want to say thank you to the 40 of you who have chosen to read, comment, and clap for my work. It is greatly appreciated.
My last post was six days ago which is disappointing to me because writing is the one thing that I love and I've neglected it.
Recently, I received three of my assessments scripts back and my lowest was a 50%. That hit me hard because I've never gotten a score lower that 79% for the subject.
That one bad mark has somehow resulted in me giving everything up. I have this fear that no matter what I do I'm going to fail, so I haven't bothered myself with studying for the upcoming examination period that begins in ten days time.
Yesterday, while obsessing over my recent marks, added to the stress centered around fact that I haven't begun studying for exams, I had an anxiety attack and later, a panic attack.
I have to say, although I've experienced panic attacks a few times before, it's not something I could ever get used to. It was during this time that I wished I had someone with me but apparently I'm destined to be alone.
I've honestly just been waiting for my motivation to return until it struck me that it's not going to return. I have to find it and find a way to make sure it doesn't leave again.
Another name for motivation in this context could be stress. Its waiting for the stress to hit and starting to study then. It's almost like procrastination. An enemy to some (like me) and a friend to others.
I'm going to count writing and publishing this post as finding my motivation. Next, I'm going to draft a study timetable. I have 10 days,I might as well make it count.
I wish both myself and you, the best in our journeys of keeping our motivation.
Until next time
Jadesola
